I started bawling the other night during Masterchef. Paddy looked over at me from the other end of the couch with a concerned expression. His eyes darted between the T.V and me, as if trying to figure out what had happened during the Pressure Test that had turned me into such an emotional wreck.
"I don't want her to grow up", I blurted. "I just want her to be a baby forever. I want her to stay just like this".
He smiled. "Yeah I know... but you wait until she's running around and talking and all those things. Every stage is going to feel like the best stage. It's only going to get better and better, you'll see".
In my heart of hearts, I know this must be true. But it's just so hard to fathom that she could be any cuter. That we could lover her any more. My heart explodes.
I'm so desperate to hang on to this time with her, but I can't wait for all those next stages and the joy, love, tears, frustration, exhaustion, laughter, affection and wonder that they will bring.
Happy 5 months Lalie Bug! You are everything. And then some.