3.10.12

Lalie and the Banyan

  This tree reminds me so much of myself; a tangled mess of loose ends. Indecisive, disorganised chaos.

Just like this tree, I feel as though I can't commit to any one place or any one thing. My ideas shoot off from every angle and end up in a confused and entangled mess.

Part of me is in London still, other parts were left behind in Sydney. Many roots lay here in Townsville while others reach out to faraway places I haven't even yet discovered. I often wonder if I'll ever feel settled.

Sometimes I find it so difficult to find a focus point. So hard to find direction. I have too many thoughts and ideas floating around this head of mine that I just can't seem to pin down and sink into solid ground.

No doubt about it, if I were a tree - the Banyan would be me.

23 comments :

  1. More beautiful pictures :)

    You're very lucky that you have many ideas to shoot off like that. What I noticed about the trees is that they all shoot and grow upwards... Yes some fold over and twist but that's life and there's bound to be bends in the road at stages :) How boring would it be if we all walked one straight line...

    Sounds like you have many stories that make up your life... Stories I'm sure your beautiful girl will love to listen to!

    Sophie xo

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  2. I think that having those ideas is excellent and the time to really stop and say "hey whats up life" and consider options would be when you don't have all these ideas.. and even though if you looked at a close up shot of a banyan it would appear to be complete chaos when you take them in overall there is a clear direction, even if it wasn't apparent earlier.

    xx

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  3. Claire I relate to this, I really do. I'm a little like that myself.
    I think is tree is quite magical really just like your photos.
    x

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  4. your not alone claire. i think it's because you are super creative. photos are magical. xo

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  5. Today I feel like a Banyan forest....

    These photos are stunning Claire. I love them all x

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  6. How beautiful!

    All those roots going in different directions ensuring survival, drawing strength from many sources.

    I have always felt like an epiphyte, with no history or culture to develop my roots on, I live on the air and cradle on the strength of others.

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  7. well what a beautiful tree Claire. I'm sending you MASSES of love today. I hope you find some calm in the chaos. remember the ebb and flow. THis is surely the most difficult time in our lives, rising babies, pulling purse strings and deciding which dreams are allowed to become reality.

    You are great Claire.

    xo em

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  8. a banyan even in all it's tangled mess is still grounded at every root, and many marvel at it's greatness. it's actually a really lovely tree to be.

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  9. the trees are like in a fairytale. love the photos!

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  10. Beautiful photos.

    And I know exactly what you mean...you put perfectly into words what I have been feeling lately.
    I need to somehow rid myself of this unsettled feeling.
    I am hoping that I am a Jacaranda...about to flower!

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  11. I can relate in every way. My mind is a tangled mess of dreams, chores, ideas and inspiration.
    I think creative people struggle to find that settled, content place. We're just too itchy to do more, create more, be more, discover more....
    Love these photos Claire! And Lalie's dress.
    x

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  12. i know exactly how you feel and you put it into words so beautifully.

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  13. Enchanting, intriguing; just like you;-)

    I can completely identify with your thoughts.

    Stephanie

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  14. These trees look like they belong in a magical forest! What a place of wonder for Eulalie to explore and wander.

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  15. Better to live a life of tangled dreams and thoughts than living a life uninspired xx

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  16. So beautiful just so beautiful! Amazing pics!

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  17. you are a most beautiful tree Claire. x

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  18. I think you just described my journey into Motherhood,

    I think we all have similar feelings, about the not knowing where to plant ourselves, & how to bring calm & order to our lives in order to do so.

    I just get this, & loved those beautiful accompanying photos.

    x

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  19. Love the photos Claire! What presets/photo editing software do you use?
    Love it!

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  20. I feel exactly the same. I believe it is because I'm staying at home at the moment careing for our youngest baby. I had the same feelings when I stayed at home with the two bigger kids. I know it will be better when I will start working again in January (that on the other hand pulls my heart out when I think of giving him to daycare...) but having a routine every day makes me feel more patient with myself an my family. Your photos and your blog is realy lovely. Thank you for sharing!
    xx Tanja from Germany

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  21. Banyan Trees are strong and grounded - I'm sure you are that too!

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  23. Beautiful, beautiful photographs. Banyan trees are so uniquely special, I remember seeing an especially large one in the town of Lahaina on the island of Maui. Blessings and peace to you.

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